I am having a very hard day today. Justin woke up with a terribly sore back and of course me knowing that this could turn into a full blown weeks worth of laying on his back i did my best to help him out. when i got home from the bus i sat down and looked out my back windows. i must admit it is beautiful out but i sure do hate being all alone. when we first moved i would open my front blinds to see the dairy and the goings ons but now i am just blaaah. whall i was sitting i thought about how much i loved going to the kids old school and seeing bridget and all the moms i knew now i feel like i am the new kid who doesn't quit fit in. my old friends understood me when i wore a hat since i have crazy hair now these ladies look at me like i must be lazy. i am really down in the dumps. Justin told me we would go out to lunch today to make me feel better and i told him not to worry about it since his back hurt. he took a nap and woke up and declared he had to go and get parts for the dairy. I WAS PISSED... i let him take a nap just so he could go and work. I just hate feeling all alone and the fact that his mom is the only person i have here and she NEVER CALLS TO SEE WHAT WE ARE DOING i am upset. she did call today to ask what my daughter wanted for her bday and that was all. oh well i think if she did invite me i would rather poke needles in my eardrums than go hang out with her. i know that sounds harsh but they are just not like my family and i will leave it at that. ok i won't she is the woman that after i had my 2nd baby brought me a gallon of milk and told me i owed her 2.50. i almost choked on my tongue she left the reciept and told me justin could pay her. my mom would buy me a cow and never ask me for a dime. we just don't get along with each other (she doesn't realize how much she bugs me though). my husband has to listen to me complain about it all. i could go on for hours but i won't. i just needed to vent. i am sure i will be back later to complain a little more for now i need to go tell the kids to stop filling up buckets in the shower and dumping them on grace's head.